Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Self Portrait Challenge: Imperfection
So I went over to the Self Portrait Challenge page this morning to see what the current challenge was. And here is what I read:
Look beyond the surface of your life, dig into your imperfect self and reveal it to us. I want to see the down and dirty you, the messy, gross and ugly you, the side of yourself that you always try to hide, give us some insight into your dreadful secrets. This can be your physical self or your personal space or within your wider life. Be not afraid!
Yikes. My first challenge and I will admit, I am afraid. Who wants to post and blog about imperfections. I was not going to do it, then I remembered a week ago today, I vowed to start. So here it is. Smoking. My imperfection.
Obviously I am aware that smoking is harmful to my health. I know what it can do to my body, I know it makes me stink, I know it is expensive and there are other things I should be doing with my money. I know it is the most disgusting habit in the world. I WANT TO QUIT. I have tried to quit many times. Only twice have I been successful, and that was during each of my pregnancies. I NEVER smoke in my house or anywhere near my children.
On a positive note, there is a date this month that Bob and I have designated as our day to stop. This will be it. We have promised to one another and promised that if for nothing else, we are quitting for our children. We want to be around for them for a very long time. How selfish are we that we can't quit for them? So I'm not going to share the date, but I will share a success story very soon.