Friday, January 19, 2007

Dr. Make-Me-Feel-Good

Thursday afternoon was spent on the Internet researching doctors and then on the phone making appointments. Sometimes I keep myself up at night, thinking about my health. (yes, this coming from the girl who smoked for 15+ years). I've come to the realization that I'm not invincible. My own mortality has hit me like a ton of bricks ever since Mike passed. I used to think, "that can't happen to me. That can't happen to us, my family, my circle of friends." That theory is out the window. It can happen. It did happen.

So I made an appointment with a dermatologist, so she can take a look at some moles I have from all the years of frolicking carelessly in the sun.
Next I called up our family doctor so he can tell me if I'm crazy or not. I had my first panic attack 4 weeks ago. It scared the hell out me. I was driving and I was alone. Some how I made it home, but that didn't make the feeling stop. I never want to experience one again, but the odds are I will.

On to lighter stuff, 1 week from today is Bob's companies Winter Gala. They don't have a x-mas party, instead they hold a gala every winter in January, after all the holiday chaos ends. This will be our 3rd year going. We always have so much fun. But I still need to (a) find a dress, (b) find a babysitter, and (c) figure out what the heck I'm gonna do with my hair. I'll tell you what, I'm not looking forward to trying to find a dress. Maybe I can get away with wearing one of the dresses in my closet.

Happy Friday! This week flew by and I love it. Have a great weekend!


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Jennifer Lynn said...

Please take care your yourself. What would I do if I couldn't blog with you on a daily basis? I love to hear about your life daily. I think you are on the right track checking out some docs.

Also, I agree with you completely. I have been living under the theory of "Live each day like it is your last" I used to worry worry worry about every penny spent and now I go, do, eat, shop and enjoy my life!

Anonymous said...

Love the new look!

Best of luck with your appointments. It's so hard to tell what's real or what we've created in our minds. Probably explains why I've been in therapy most of my adult life.

Love you!

Kara said...

Hope things go well at the Dr.'s. I agree with Mollie about sometimes things re just in our minds. We found out that we have been living in this house with hight levels of Radon and now I can just FEEL all the carcinagens(sp?) running through my body!!! Seriously, I hope all goes well for you. Tell me about you ads by google, I was going to do it but haven't had the time to research it. Thanks a bunch and have a great weekend!!

Michelle said...

The mole thing is good to have checked. Even better that you are going to a dermatologist for that, if you have to have anything removed they will do a neater job of it that a GP.